Screaming, my soul nearly rips from my flesh
Blood curdling screeches of my pain of my death
Yet I have not died but cannot live
A long awaited love no one cared to give
The thought of you rots in my heart
The part of me you torn apart
You dare to take away what can never be yours
Its because of you I lay cold on these floors
The moon glows its eerie blue
The same glow I found in you
Your eyes that were intoxicating
Just the thought is aggravating
How could you do what you did to me
Blind my eyes with false love so I could not see
But now that your gone I know what you've done
And so now my anger has only begun
Smile for me, sweet marionette
So sublte, to see you smile-
beguile.
Torment-- and play
with me; only me,
indisclosed, undefined--
insolent--
little puppet.
Imaginary-- like a reverie
tantalizing, or
enticing- your strings,
your screams, asphyxiated
whispers,
my marionette.
You're mine; mine
my sweet, sweet marionette.
Laying there, in silence-
all the time of the world has gone;
passed her by, fled.
Fleeting thoughts of a time ago, reoccuring.
Drifting within the hourglass hands,
the desolate sands; such a precious waste.
The scouring heat fails to warm,
boiling waste with bones--
gentle carresses from calloused hands.
Mirrors, mirages, to the blind one's eye,
let her dream, let her play;
forget the burn of the scorpian's sting.
When atlast your failure haunts,
pretend little girl, feint.
Lay there, indulging in the silence
while all the time of the world goes;
passing you by, flee.
Sifting through your calloused hands,
untimely sands; dr
From a time ago, she waited
anticipating the cold, the snow-- the quiet.
From a time ago, she might have been happy
hidden in the child-like innocence;
something we now call ignorance.
A time ago, she smiled
a smile of calm, of all but what is now.
Now the time has come,
having come, but haven't passed--
something that was full of colours, only black and white
and those inbetweens.
Of anticipation, now dread
and once a smile, now a lie.
A lie, all of all-- but what couldn't have been.
Awhile ago, she thought, she laughed.
But what are thoughts
in the mind of a broken-eyed child?
What are thoughts?
Broken dreams that may nev
"Left alone, words unsaid..
his mocking smile and perfect eyes.
Though it's sad, behind her shameful lies..
He couldn't see the pain-- a throbbing heart, dead.
And so, smile-on-smile by day, by night
alone, she cried; alone, she bled.
Wearing the pain of a pointless fight,
she feared the tears she never shed.
Lying to see his smile,
she loved with the freezing heart-- the pain.
Inside it burnt and stapped, like a poison, vile..
Loathesome by habit, and all but sane;
a mask she kept behind a Liar's Masquerade-
and behind it all, the pain did not fade..
And now, left alone with words unsaid,
she doesn't see his mocking smile, or
Shed tears, and hollow regrets.
Forlorn days passed, countless sunsets.
The emptiness of winter; liars intricate decay--
personified loneliness and mistaken beauty; but a shame made of clay.
Cryptic sanity's meaningless masque,
o'er vindicated hate; catty convictions of the taken martyr role.
Oh, shame, shame-- desolate, vile shame
Drought of emptied tears, empty hollow, empty.. name.
Pits dug deep, of sanguine lies, or ensanguined liar?
Must thee lie of mine beauty? Ye shant see past your fire..
Winter's nocturne of faithless; an empty masquerade.
Liars, shame made of clay-- scars, pain.. shant fade.
"And lifting that sword to the Heavens, a mourning cry-- of which shattered the skies-- rose forth from the extended silence, and strangled fear with its chilling echo.
Now lit with life, the bleeding sky quivered-- and even as the life fled, it sang; it sang with thunder, and rejoiced with lightning, and it in the mood of the hour, it cried-- drowning the world beneath it.
There, beneath Heaven's relentless torrent, crooked with despair, bent with anger, and trembling with pain, there kneeled a woman-- whose mourning cry had shattered such silence, and whose sword has been risen to the Heavens. And now, with sword at hand, simple grace whi
"Dawn broke the bleak horizon,
lighting afire all within its path;
the recapturing of death reborn.
Here there is no dawn, there is no sky.
Just the void, the hollow-
the mirror within your heart.
And with its fiery, victorious banner,
of which claimed the skies,
from forth the heavens, sang serenity.
In this stygian world,
claimed by torrential anguish,
there sang no serenity, no songs-
a dead beat for a dead world.
Of twilight's chaos, and lavender flourish,
a lovers' nocturne,
and entwined rhapsody; lonely innocence.
Derailing cries, beguiling eyes-
no lovers' nocturne,
naught a entwined rhapsody;
maddness' requiem, lo
Kiss the sky, oh graceful Moon,
Beloved. Dearly, your gentle arms..
Stroke. Wrap me in your blanket,
wish. Warmth that chills thy bones--
beguiling. Silence, oh silence. I hear,
whispering presence, kiss the sky,
oh graceful Moon.
--
Silence, oh silence. Thy presence be known.
Loneliness depletes, emptiness consumes.
I caught your gaze, and with it you stole.
Stolen, my heart. Lonely, lonely heart.
Loneliness depletes, emptiness consumes.
"Where, in the arms of that Angel, did I feel comfort?
When the insecurity blinded even the darkness I saw..
and the loneliness hung me to dry?
So again, my friend, in the arms of that Angel,
did you see me cry? Or did a part of me die?
Whether the part, or the heart itself,
a pain resides, stains from that Angel.
Oh, my Angel, my Angel,
my steel cage, my lone requiem,
You took my heart, that I so blindly offered..
With my last breath, you gave it back-
A promise of pain, a promise of tears,
A promise of your love..
So where, in your arms, my Angel, can I die?"
Current Residence: wudnt u lyk 2 kno? Favourite genre of music: lookPrevious? Favourite photographer: O. Winston Link Favourite style of art: Anything that catches my eye. Operating System: XP MP3 player of choice: Windows Media Player Shell of choice: Don't Wallpaper of choice: Really Skin of choice: know Favourite cartoon character: Tazmanian devil Personal Quote: Fiddlesticks
Favourite Visual Artist
Salvador Dali, Van Gogh, DaVinci.. MCEscher
Favourite Movies
The Night Before Christmans
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Anything that doesn't amount to someone singing about my butt. :O
Due to the fact that my tablet has pooped out on me.. I probably won't be uploading that much (not that I am now anyways..) but.. I will be uploading traditional artwork whenever I get the chance to scan it. So yeh. Stay tuned, kidos. :D
Ok. Today wasn't entirely bad. >> .. ..scratch that. Today sucked. Just like almost every other f'in day of my life. And it's not just because it's "Valentine's Week!" Although.. it doesn't help. I hate Valentine's, for my own reasons, too. I don't give a damn if that offends someone out there. --
People at school need to stop sucking face and glueing themselves to the walls. Give it a break, please.
Neh.. other than that. My brother already has colleges lining up to grant him scholarships. I should be happy for him, yea, I know.. but.. when it gets to the point that every other sibling of your's is so much more special and smarter than you
Thank the lord it's the weekend.. I'd, like.. die if it wasn't. x_X I still have.. 50 more minutes of class though. T_T; Fesh.
Late NewYear's resolutions(?):
() Sketch/draw -atleast- once a day.
() Find new ways to revise/improve style.
() (re)fresh vocabulary.
(( Stop wasting time in algebra.. XDD Like now? 0:) ))
() Stop procrastinating.. >.>
() Make an effort to attend school more..
() Bring grades up. x_X;;;
() See a psychiatrist.. ._.;;
() Clean my room more often? o_o.. [We'll see how far this gets.. x) ]
() GETANGERMANAGEMENT.HAH. Joking. >.> I don't need it. e_e
Well.. this list took up 15 minutes of 'precious' class time.